Here I am with my 5 little ones. There is Tucker (left) and Tristan (right) next to me. Tate (left) and Cole (right) in front of me and little Tessa sitting on me.
Wednesday, December 8, 2010
About Time
It is about time I write again. I have 4 nephews and 1 niece, with another baby on the way. Don't know what it is yet.
Tessa, my niece, has a heart defect. She is doing ok for now. Soon, March or April, she will have to have heart surgery to repair everything. She has 2 holes in her heart and the ventricals are not there. She is cute.
Tessa, my niece, has a heart defect. She is doing ok for now. Soon, March or April, she will have to have heart surgery to repair everything. She has 2 holes in her heart and the ventricals are not there. She is cute.
Sunday, January 17, 2010
Very long time since I post last. It has been quite a year. I decided that I needed to get my life back on track. I went through the process and got my temple recommend back. Got it at the first part of January 2010. I am glad, but I am still working on forgiving myself and allowing the spirit into my life on a daily basis. It was not as easy to go back to the temple as I had thought. I was thinking I would have this over whelming feeling of peace and calm. I didn't. I did a couple of times, but not very much. Most of it was a fight within myself. It is so hard to change.
I was finally in a relationship. We were dating for about 4 months. I loved it. It just wasn't right to be more than just friends. I know my family is very glad about it not working out. That was the hardest thing. I was in my first relationship and they were not even a little happy for me. Oh well. I know why and there is nothing I can do to change his past or their thoughts. Me and him are still friends. I know people don't see it that way, but I don't know how else to tell people that we are friends only, than just to say it.
I have felt like a huge failure and disappointment this past year and a half. I know people care about me. I just want to learn things in life for myself. Not everything. I know we have to learn from the past, but some things I want to experience. I'm not sure why people don't want me to be able to but oh well. I know people don't trust my judgment, but I have good judgment. I have just chosen to ignore it. There is a difference.
I have been pulling away from people lately. I guess I just want to live my life and make my own choices without worrying about if other people agree with my choices or not. I know one group thinks it's due to the other person and the other person thinks I'm pulling away because of the group. The funny thing is, I am pulling away from both. Of course they don't believe that. I guess one of these days they will realize that I'm not a liar. If I was a liar, then there wouldn't be all the drama. I wouldn't have said anything to anyone about the past.
I am at a point where I NEED a vacation. It isn't a want. I really think that if I don't get away from almost everyone, then I will literally go insane. Hard part is I can't afford to go anywhere. I am hoping with a tax refund I can go somewhere inexpensive. I am trying to find an inexpensive cruise. Although the cheap ones are still, with flight, over $400. Oh well. I guess sanity is worth it.
I am going to get healthy. I am coming up with something that will help me reach that goal. I am going to go to the gym with a friend after work. I then will come home and if I don't have plans, I will walk on my treadmill instead of just sitting and watching t.v. I will walk and watch t.v.
Well, that is it for now.
I was finally in a relationship. We were dating for about 4 months. I loved it. It just wasn't right to be more than just friends. I know my family is very glad about it not working out. That was the hardest thing. I was in my first relationship and they were not even a little happy for me. Oh well. I know why and there is nothing I can do to change his past or their thoughts. Me and him are still friends. I know people don't see it that way, but I don't know how else to tell people that we are friends only, than just to say it.
I have felt like a huge failure and disappointment this past year and a half. I know people care about me. I just want to learn things in life for myself. Not everything. I know we have to learn from the past, but some things I want to experience. I'm not sure why people don't want me to be able to but oh well. I know people don't trust my judgment, but I have good judgment. I have just chosen to ignore it. There is a difference.
I have been pulling away from people lately. I guess I just want to live my life and make my own choices without worrying about if other people agree with my choices or not. I know one group thinks it's due to the other person and the other person thinks I'm pulling away because of the group. The funny thing is, I am pulling away from both. Of course they don't believe that. I guess one of these days they will realize that I'm not a liar. If I was a liar, then there wouldn't be all the drama. I wouldn't have said anything to anyone about the past.
I am at a point where I NEED a vacation. It isn't a want. I really think that if I don't get away from almost everyone, then I will literally go insane. Hard part is I can't afford to go anywhere. I am hoping with a tax refund I can go somewhere inexpensive. I am trying to find an inexpensive cruise. Although the cheap ones are still, with flight, over $400. Oh well. I guess sanity is worth it.
I am going to get healthy. I am coming up with something that will help me reach that goal. I am going to go to the gym with a friend after work. I then will come home and if I don't have plans, I will walk on my treadmill instead of just sitting and watching t.v. I will walk and watch t.v.
Well, that is it for now.
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